Life's Roller Coaster: Change & Evolution

I don’t know about you, but sometimes change is scary! Sometimes it takes a huge event or crisis to cause me to make changes. How about you? The truth is I often say, “I’m not very good with change.” It’s kind of silly really, to say that. After all we are always changing. One hair grows in and several fall out. The sun sets and it rises. There is birth and there is death. Our entire human body is new every seven years, they say.

So why is it that we consider change to be scary? Why is it when we are being pushed from our comfort zone we tremble, hesitate, freeze? After all, change is all around and within us.

From my perspective, speaking for myself here, change is difficult because of it’s unpredictability. After all the sun will always rise and always set. I know that. But when it comes to those events in life like a new relationship, the ending of a relationship, a new job, a new home or change in financial stability, there is this element of unpredictability. Some people seem to thrive for the thrill of unpredictability. Usually, I am NOT one of those people. Sometimes I enjoy an element of risk, like on a roller coaster ride. But generally I like my routine. I like to know what I’m doing tomorrow. I like to know how the ball is going to land.

The last four years of my lie have been in a state of constant flux. From starting a new business, to starting AND ending a marriage, to moving house and home, not once, not twice, but three times. There have been changes in financial stability, changes in health, changes in routine. I was thinking about routine yesterday. I realize that at one time I was a creature of habit. I had my daily routine. I rose early, walked the dogs, got a shower, had coffee and breakfast, went to work, had a full routine at work, came home, walked the dogs, had a G & T, watched some TV or ran chores, went to bed. Started it all over again the next day.

My life resembles nothing like that now. Not a thing like it! And you know what? I’m glad. I have grown stronger. I have become wiser. I have seen more of life’s ups and downs in the last four years than in the previous 46! I have changed in so many ways. I am evolving.

Last weekend I was hit with the second bout of this year’s winter head cold, having only just recovered from a third bout of stomach flu for the season. I felt totally dejected. I just didn’t get it. I really felt sorry for myself. Then I found this jewel. Every single experience I have had these last few years has brought me to this place. If I’d continued in that same old routine, would I be writing this blog? Probably not! Would I be living in a different town – one that I’d never considered to live in? Definitely not! Would I have been happy? I can honestly say, no!

Thank you for giving me these last four years. It ain’t been easy! In fact it’s been one heck of a roller coaster ride! But thank you!!!

Life's Roller Coaster: Change & Evolution