Relax! It'll Be Fine...Perhaps?

 

If there’s one thing I’ve learned its that the only thing I can control it is my need to control. I could give all the psychiatric lingo that makes good reasoning for my need to control. But when it really comes down to it, it doesn’t matter. Why? Because ultimately nothing is in my control, nothing!

This last month and a half has been a whirlwind of activity: The run up to Christmas, shopping, working, writing, socializing, the usual ups and downs on this wonderful roller coaster ride. The last week has been the crash and burn time of that ride. We are in the midst of boxes and packages as we pack up the final things of our current home and get ready to move to the next. Yet another part of the adventure of life. It’s not been an easy few weeks. There has been a lot of pain and grief with this move. But who said that change is ever easy. Better still, who can control change. The only thing that I can control in all of this is my willingness to let go of control.

Over the last week or so I have noticed myself becoming more and more tired. On top of that I haven’t been sleeping so well either. I’m a list-maker. It’s my little way of keeping things under control. The problem for me though, is to be able to shut off the list making at bed time. I wake in the night and add to the list. Then doze (or try to) and add to the list, etc…

When I get over tired I begin to see a rise in the pain levels in my body. When I get over tired I begin to feel crappy. So the last few days I haven’t been getting the blog written. In fact, I haven’t been getting much of anything done, including packing. I chose on Thursday afternoon, to let go and just go with the flow. For me that has meant sleeping a lot! Yes it’s added a bit of stress for me, because I feel like the list is ever-growing and the time is every growing shorter. But it will be fine. It always is.

So this blog is just to let you know that I haven’t forgotten, I’ve just chosen to let go and take a few days easier. I’ll be back at it in a couple of days. You have my word on that. In the meantime I do wish I was doing what the person in this picture is doing: Sitting on the beach with a margarita in hand…or three!

Relax! It'll Be Fine...Perhaps?