Healing: What is it really?

I am reading a great book right now called Dr. Judith Orloff’s Guide to Intuitive Healing: 5 Steps to Physical, Emotional and Sexual Wellness. 

For many years I have grappled with the concept of healing probably because I have a lifetime of health challenges and have lived with chronic pain for about thirty years of this life. I have heard many spiritual people tell me, in subtle and not so subtle ways, that I have created/manifested/ chosen to be unhealthy and that I can choose to be healed. I have done everything from praying to Jesus/God to doing the alternative and modern medicine. I have carried with me the burden of guilt because for some reason I don’t measure up. I am not spiritual enough, good enough. Guilt, in its own way can cause a great deal of health issues ranging from the physical to the mental. In fact carrying any emotion, whether it be positive or negative [Blog by this title here] has an effect on our wholeness. 

So if someone lost a leg in an accident, does that mean that they are not spiritual enough? If a baby is born with, or a young child develops a terrible illness such as cancer, does that mean that they are not spiritual enough? Does a baby have the wherewithal to cause a physical illness or choose for it to go away? Perhaps. If we believe that the soul carries with it the wisdom of the ages, then yes. But does the mind always perceive the wisdom of the soul? No. 

So this all led me down the path of inquiry. Am I less than the person who has manifested physical healing in their lives? Or better still someone who is never ill? Am I missing something in my journey? Or is it just possible that I have chosen this life and all its challenges, whether it be bodily health or circumstances, to experience it and know it and possibly learn from it? And is it possible that one day I will manifest that my back will no longer be painful? 

To the first inquiry, no. I am no less spiritual than the other. We are all here to experience life with all the challenges we face. Some of the souls of the past have chosen to be dictators, murderers, lovers, healers. They/we are all on a spiritual path. No one is better. No one is at a different level either. That just smacks of pride. We are all on parallel paths that affect everyone else and cause each to experience just what they agreed to. 

To the second inquiry, again no. I am exactly where I am supposed to be. Neal Donald Walsh in his best-selling series Conversations with God says that we are not broken and don’t need to be fixed. We are exactly where we are supposed to be. There is nothing wrong with any of us. 

To the third inquiry, yes. I am experiencing everything I came here to experience. 

To the fourth inquiry, and all similar, yes. It is possible to experience healing on a physical level. But the work always, first and foremost is deeper than that. Just look at the people of this world who accomplish great things and are disabled (by the way I do not like that word at all). There are just so many. Just look at the people of the world who have gone before us, inventors, scientists, artists, poets, singers, actors. They say that we all must be a little mad to be truly creative and present to this world. Some of these people in history have lived their lives with real challenges to health and circumstance, yet they accomplished so much and have caused the world to be a different/better place. They were able to experience true healing despite their bodies from regular Joe’s to Presidents!

My Truth: I have let go of the guilt and shame that others have foisted upon me. I will not wear it. I will not accept their opinion as my reality. Besides judgement always comes from within, “I am not acceptable so therefore I must shine an unacceptable light on someone else to cause people to look at them and not me.” I am learning that true healing begins and ends with the soul. Often times this will result in the physical healing, sometimes relief, sometimes the experience I chose before I came here will be the very illness that I carry. Why? Because in it and through it I AM made whole.

Your Truth: Have you, like me, struggled with this guilt or shame because your body just doesn’t do what others feel it should? Have you been held back because of that perception? Is it possible that your healing will come through the illness and not from it? I’d be interested to hear from you. Healing: What is it really?