God's Timing

For the last couple of years I have been in transition. Well to be correct, the transition began five years ago on July 1. But the last two years was a final farewell, officially, to my consulting business. It doesn't mean that I've given up on it or that I can't pick it up at anytime. In fact I'm consulting with a group who have a magnificent vision for a well needed community service. But I'm not charging.

When I finally let go, if you've been following from the start when I started this blog, I was then left with the letting go of my ego and asking the Provincial Government for help. At that time I thought it would be a monthly welfare cheque. But due to some on-going health issues over the years I was automatically put on Provincial Disability. Now the 'allowance' (because let's face it, it was not enough for me to live on) was small and the stresses it brought to me were deep. Last year another transition was when I finally let go of my debt load and worked a Consumer Proposal that would allow me to pay only a portion of my owings to my debtors. Yet another Ego release.

The last 19 months I was employed on-call, as well as receiving the Disability Allowance, with a local funeral firm. I will say right here, I am so very grateful for that job and the people who filled it with me. It allowed me a bit of 'wiggle room' and was actually responsible for me going the route of a Consumer Proposal rather than a second bankruptcy, which would destroy my credit for about 15 years (almost retirement). It also allowed me to grow stronger, both physically and emotionally, so that I could say with the utmost certainty that I was ready to return to full-time work.

Over these last months I have been looking for work. I had times of real disappointment as you can well imagine. Applying for work, if done properly, is a huge sales job of oneself. I couldn't sell a Band-aid to a bleeding patient! Yet I worked hard on pretty well every application. It was about integrity and allowing the Universe/God to work the necessary miracle.

My motto has been through all these months, even when in despair, I will get the most beneficial job in God's time; not a moment too soon, or a moment too late. So I've completed one week. The first day I came home with a headache the size of a 747! The second day, the same, except it was more like a small prop-plane. By day three I was feeling my stride. I love the work! It addresses my administrative abilities and qualifications. It has room for significant growth. It has a great environment. It has fantastic benefits some of which I'm already enjoying. I feel blessed. All those months of searching from the top of this province to the USA border and from East to West on Vancouver Island. I have applied for many jobs I was over qualified to do. I have applied...well...just because; because I needed to keep the energy flowing. With over 100 applications under my belt I had only gotten THREE interviews. Can you imagine?

So here I am. I am the Development Assistant at The Chemainus Theatre.

Not a moment too soon; nor a moment too late.