Gratitude...AGAIN? Enough Already!

Enough already!

It seems that over the last month or so I keep getting this STRONG MESSAGE about gratitude. I wrote about in on December 21, 2013 in Gratitude…No Matter What!. I had already been experiencing a series of events that were trying that thinking at that point.

Then starting a few weeks ago I switched my morning reading from an E-Book by Melody Beattie called More Language of Letting Go, to reading her daily meditations on her site. Her theme the last few weeks has been gratitude. And boy have I needed it. But I have still been finding myself worrying about stuff. Mostly money of course. It seems to be the theme in many lives these days. Times are not easy for a lot of people. Changes in many lives including marital status, employment, finance, relationships, residence and more, have changed much of the way we cope.

There are those who believe this is part of the way that the Earth is shifting to the new paradigm. Some say it’s just merely the world economy. Some say it’s prophecy. I say it’s a pain in the but!! I’m tired of struggling! I’m tired of worrying of the rent is going to bounce or whether I can make the car payment. And then there’s the recent addition to my already beleaguered credit of all the moving expenses.

So I sat down to journaling. I had had a very rough night. My body was on “high pain alert”. I have been pushing very hard with all the moving. I had missed a few days of thyroid medication because I’d run out and was trying to get some blood work done for the Doctor. I have been fighting a sinus ‘thing’, including nose bleeds, for weeks now. And I’ve been spending a lot of time in the lu, if you know what I mean, over the last three days. Add to this the worry about ‘stuff’ and you have a toxic mix for the body to work with. So I missed going into work today (Wednesday) because of it all. So I woke up feeling pretty sorry for myself.

As I journaled I looked out my window at the new vista I can enjoy. I have the mountains behind Ladysmith looming pretty close now. There is a bit of snow up there the last few days. The wind is quite strong today; but so is the sun. I can see my car out the back too. Then I looked around the room and although it’s filled with unpacking I was drawn to how much ‘stuff’ I actually have; my gizmos and things. As the flow continued I thought and wrote about my kids, Michelle [who has been here weekly, packing, cleaning, moving, unpacking and now trying to help me in stuffing too much stuff into little spaces (yes I need to downsize...but why do I have to downsize my 9 Xmas trees???)], Sarah [who has been going through the mill - to put it nicely - at work as well as what I've been going through with the move, losing friends in the process, financial pressure, time constraints and health stuff too], and Tim [who wants so much to be here helping but has started a new life in a new city. And all I can want for him is the happiness that he's experiencing].

MY TRUTH: Gosh! I’m blessed! I’m truly blessed with such abundance!!!! Time to stop complaining and start counting my blessings!

Gratitude...AGAIN? Enough Already!